It is just one of those days… barkbarkbark. I need a weekend now.
Sometimes you wonder, what if I was there at that point in time? What if that was me? What if I went there?
You can spend a lot of your time wondering about what could have been in some hypothetical situation, but when you think like that, you are only living in a dream. Sometimes I still have these moments, but I realized… If I did not go through what I did, if I wasn’t in the places I was, I would be a different person. I am happy with how I am. Even thought there are some qualities I do not like, those are things I should accept. Or if they are bad enough, I should make an effort to change them.
I might always get the girl, but you learn from those experiences. When I do get someone, I can cherish her. The food I cook might turn out how I want it to, but when I do get it right, it is amazing.
The past is something to reflect on, not something that you can alter. The best way is to look forward and make it into a past you won’t regret.
I am finally back at home for Winter Break. The extra week in Davis drained me more than it helped. I think I need super alone time in a small cozy room. In my apartment it was too big and cold, although the heater in my house broke the moment I got home… so we will see how this goes.
I pretty much threw all my stuff in the living room, set up my computer, and started lounging. Tomorrow I will reorganize everything. After all I will be here for 3 weeks, but for now… I will be lazy.
I watched Captain America today, I wasn’t really satisfied with how it turned out. Like I didn’t really mind the lame fighting scenes or the lame plot what I didn’t like was… *spoilers prepare yourself*
He didn’t end up with the girl at all. He got one kiss, but never got to even dance with her. It would have been nice to see him maybe dance with the older version of the girl in the future or I guess in our case, the present. Well, if I was him, I’d be pissed. lol.
I want a dog =[
Oh dog. You so silly.
Well. It has been a while since we talked, but I guess it is better like this. But why after all these months am I thinking about you while reading about algal methane biogas production. Please get out.
My dreams have been pretty crazy, especially when I get a good night’s sleep. Just the other day I got attacked by an fat giant ant eater, and when it tackled me its nose kept going back and for as if it was trying to swallow me, but his mouth wasn’t big enough. In the background, circus music was playing and ever few measures something was going “ant eeeeater, ant eeeeater” in a high pitch voice. Kinda like a horror movie.
Today was just a mix of everything. Now that I actually reflect on it… more is rushing to my head. There is stuff about classes, going on campus, getting on the bus and this disneyland ride. It was like an Alice in Wonderland thing, where you walk though the movie. And I went into the first room, and it started to storm inside the artificial environment so I decided to take the alternate route that bypasses the display/ride. Then I got contacted by some higher being or evil presence saying I had to tickle this animal to live or do something, then I get teleported to a large body of water. Everyone was in a kayak or a canoe and I put my stuff in my back pack. The next thing I knew a lot of people already moved so and I was on top of a building. I was thinking, ahhh I forgot my shoes in my bag, oh…. my dog Chip! He should be in my bag. I ended up searching all over for him and my bag. Someone from my high school said they put all of the stuff in the base of another building. From the roof of the building I was already on, I saw him look through all the bags, and I just thought to myself that he’s stupid and isn’t looking hard enough. I jump down the wall to look as well but I couldn’t find chip or my backpack. I end up going back to the dock, and I found my bag but a lot of it was empty. Then I realized that Chip ran away, so I start running to search the beach and I saw him in the distance playing with an owner and other dogs. He runs back to me, but it seems like he doesn’t completely remember me, or that he just hasn’t seen me for a while.
It turns out the guy sent an email or put up a posting 3 hours before, and freddie wong (the youtube guy) helped rescue chip with a horse that they rescued. They even made a video about it, in an Epic Meal Time kinda way. Hopefully without eating animals.
When I look at his back legs, I realize their gone x___x even though a second before hand they were there. He had prosthetic legs. So sad =[. Then it shifts to a house, where I am looking for his legs, but it turns out their pieces of meat of his old legs in a take out container -___- I was thinking… there’s no way he can run on these. There were so many little details, but I am glad I can see you again Chip! You’ve gotten flufflier, but you’re still big and strong.
